I’m so sorry for your loss. I’d like to share some real hope with you. In Psalms 146:4 tells the condition of the dead. “His breath goes out, he returns to the earth and that very day his thoughts perish.” The bible promises a resurrection of our loved ones back to earth Act 24:15. When Jesus resurrected Lazarus from the dead, he brought him back to earth. He’s going to do that on a much larger scale in the future. In Psalms 37:11+29 says man will live forever on the earth in peace. That was God’s original purpose, for Adam and Eve to live forever in the garden of eden. God’s purpose hasn’t changed. In Isaiah 45:18 says God created the earth to be inhabited. That’s why he gave his son to die for us, John 3:16, so we could have everlasting life on earth. In Revelation 21:4 says there’ll be no more pain or death. Is there pain and death in heaven? Of course not. Those are future conditions on earth under God’s kingdom arrangement. JW.org